For many years I lived a life full of fear, depression and anxiety. combined with low-self esteem and self-sabotaging habits. I let other people run my life for me. My focus was on the outside rather than on the inside. My fear of judgment and not feeling good or smart enough were running the show in my mind. It was a constant battle trying to get approval from others and making it in this world. I grew up as a people-pleaser and a perfectionist. Like many of us do. I didn’t learn to set healthy boundaries and found myself constantly giving too much of myself and not being on the receiving end. In fact, it took me years to finally feel comfortable in receiving. I was hurting myself by constantly trying to be the “good girl” in order to keep the peace and to help and support others until my batteries where empty. I was struggling to refuel myself and turned to unhealthy habits, negative self-talk, and self-sabotaging behaviour. I was mentally beating myself up and was very hard on myself. Although, I had so much compassion for everyone around me, even the people that treated me poorly, I seemed to have none left for myself. I, so freely gave my time and energy away for others. I didn’t know how to support myself in a healthy way. I had very little love and compassion for myself. For years, I had been trying to heal my traumas and childhood wounds-wounds we all carry to an extent. It took many years in therapy, changing my thoughts, behaviours and habits before I started to make more healthier and aligned choices for myself. I suffered from multiple burn outs and was constantly in a depressed or anxious state. I never seem to really fit in. At least, that was what I was feeling. I felt disconnected from myself but so connected to the world when I was travelling. When I started to relocate to Ireland in 2012, I started to experience a feeling of inner and outer peace and freedom for the first time. Over the years, I tried several approaches, therapies and methods to heal my broken spirit and my childhood traumas but I only got that far every time. My mind seemed to be more powerful in keeping up with the negative habits and my self-sabotaging behaviour. Something needed to change. I had enough. I wanted to put an end to this ongoing inner fight and find the freedom I knew deep down I deserved.
That’s when I turned away from traditional medicine and diagnoses and found a new path in Holistic healing. I have worked with coaches, therapists, healers, doctors and holistic practitioners and invested thousands in courses, classes and personal development. I began to work on my stress levels by becoming a certified meditation teacher and started giving classes, back when I was living the UK in 2016. I slowly created awareness around my lifestyle, the people in my life and how I was showing up for myself and the outside world, Over time, my confidence grew and my stress levels started to calm down. I had finally stepped onto a new path: My very own life path! In 2017 I felt a strong pull and decided to move back to Germany after spending the past 5 years abroad working and travelling through Ireland, the UK and the US. I have been teaching others the benefits of mindfulness and meditation and have been coaching hundreds of women from all over the world helping and guiding them home to themselves by identifying who they really are. It is my privilege to help others overcome their limiting beliefs, fears and insecurities in order to find their purpose and life their best lives. If it was possible for me. I believe it’s possible for everyone with the right approach and tools. I strongly believe in healing ourselves and our core wounds if we are ready to show up for ourselves and put in the work.
